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The bets I am making this month.
Most personal sites look frozen in the moment they were written. This page is the opposite. It tells you what I am actually changing, focused on, and being changed by this month. It is not a task list. It is where the work is.
Last refreshed · 2026-08-02 · Las Vegas
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What I am changing this month.
The pressure is the headset talking.. life does not need a deadline
I keep catching myself inventing urgency around love, family, and the clock.. as if 24,519 days to a hundred, or 79,304 to two-fifty, were a project plan. The bet this month is that the timeline is a costume. Let go of the expectation that something must arrive on schedule, and let a life (and a partner, if one comes) unfold without me performing readiness.
Create for the sake of creating.. presence is the product
Going Home took a few days of me losing the plot on purpose, and it felt like play again. The position I am taking is that feeling things fully is not a side quest to the company.. it is the point. Breath, sleep, the Hoffman feelings list, the strange luck of getting to feel this much.. that is the work the systems are supposed to buy back.
Money that moves like bits needs boring plumbing, not another story
GardenPatch keeps pointing at the same shape: business actions as boring rails, the Stripe of the work underneath the brand. The bet is that the future belongs to whoever makes money and agency move as easily as packets.. then gets out of the way. I still get nervous I talk too much about it, and then notice I do not talk enough.
A lot with a little is a focus problem, not a hustle problem
Elysium is on my phone. The /now reminder fires earlier because the system improved. Hundreds of agents cleared queues while I tried to remember a deeper breath. The bet is that leverage without space is just a faster cage.. health, sleep, and a few great conversations are not rewards after the work, they are how the work stays worth doing.
The questions
What I am focused on.
If reality is a headset, what am I practicing when I feel something all the way through?
Donald Hoffman keeps returning to the interface we mistake for the world. I am less interested in winning the argument than in what changes when I treat a feeling as real enough to stay with.. without needing it to become a strategy.
What becomes scarce when money moves as easily as bits?
If GardenPatch (or something like it) turns business action into plumbing, the bottleneck cannot stay payment. I keep asking whether the scarce thing becomes trust, taste, attention, or the courage to say less and mean it.
How do I want a family without turning love into a KPI?
The desire is real. The pressure is the part I do not trust. I want to know what it looks like to stay open to a partner and a home without performing the timeline culture sells as adulthood.
Reading
- Donald Hoffman.. Reality is a user interface (talk)
- Hoffman Institute.. Feelings and Sensations list
- Going Home.. a few days lost in the notebook on purpose
- The open feed on X.. still the sharpest real-time classroom I have
Thinking about
- 24,519 days to a hundred.. 79,304 to two-fifty.. and somehow still rushing
- Life is a meditation if I remember the next breath
- Nervous I talk too much.. then notice I do not talk enough
- Elysium on the phone feels like proof, not a trophy
- Feeling fully as luck.. the list is long on purpose
- Donald Hoffman on the headset we mistake for the world.. the talk I keep returning to
About this page
This is a /now page in the tradition Derek Sivers started. It refreshes monthly on purpose.. and the refresh is a forcing function to tell you what I am actually betting on, not what I shipped.
Every month stays on the record. You can follow the trail and watch the bets change.